2017 Check In - May Cause Miracles, Pregnancy, Name Change & More!

And just like that we're half way through the first month of the new year.

I hope you all are doing well and manifesting some magic with the fresh new start of 2017.

Its typically by now that our new year goals fall off and we pick up those old patterns and habits. The gyms slow down, were no longer juicing, were back to drinking soda, etc...were waiting until next year to "start again".

Im telling you now that it doesn't have to be that way. I truely believe sticking to goals and creating new habits has so much to do with our inner dialogue and our way of thinking. Our external world reflects our internal state and we have way more control over this than we give ourselves credit for.

If you are finding yourself in this low level thinking go check out my last post.

By changing your mindset and re organizing your thinking. You don't need to wait until next year. You can start right now - in this moment.    

So what's been up for me since January 1st?

The start of 2017 has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster. A gorgeous emotional rollercoaster I am honored and so grateful to be on.  

To start the new year off with high vibe thoughts and mega magic I took to my spirituality tool kit. I started another round of May Cause Miracles - which has an amplified affect when you are pregnant and hormonal.

When I participated in this 40 day guide last year my life changed dramatically.

I learned a lot during those 40 days, it was during that time that I realized most of my life was ruled by fear and I desperately needed to make some changes. MCM focuses on replacing fear with love by creating "daily subtle shifts for radical change and unlimited happiness". This beautiful guide inspired the first steps to a very needed life detox for me in 2016. 

One year later, my life is drastically different and I have this wonderful tool in my back pocket. Twice a year I participate in this 40 day guide and I love it.

Each year I have decided to do a private course with me and a few peeps at the start of the year. Then in May I open it up on my blog to all of you and we do it as a group. You can check out the details > HERE <

We have a Facebook group with daily dialogue and a group of miracle workers who connect, encourage, and help each other out throughout the process. It's great! 

This round of MCM has already brought up a lot for me. I'll be honest in saying that this did surprise me. I went into this round feeling like I had detoxed a lot of my fears already and that participating would be a breeze. It would be a refresher course, mostly to get me ready to share it with all of you in May. 

Now that I'm about 2 weeks deep I'm realizing that the work is never done. It's a continuous process of peeling back layers. And although I live life with a miracle mindset I still have fear that creeps in from time to time, and that's ok. 

This round specifically i've realized I have a lot of fear around my blog and my YouTube channel. I have a fear of failure and not being heard. Both fears tell me "I'm not good enough" and were developed at some point in my childhood. 

It's been an interesting process uncovering these fears and dealing with them now as an adult. 

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I love that this book guides me through those issues by uncovering them delicately daily. I love that self love, forgiveness and gratitude are weekly topics and that following this guide takes me maybe 10-15 min a day. 

I spend more time going to the bathroom and fucking around on SnapChat. When people tell me they don't have time for this kind of work it blows my mind. I love when Gabrielle Bernstein says "do you have time to feel like shit?" 

It's not that we don't have time, it's that our fear and our ego keep us stuck. It's our resistance that makes us think we don't have time. 

I take what I learned in those 10-15 min and apply it throughout my entire day - each day is more authentic, happier, more productive, and less stressful. Doing it for 40 days creates a new patter and a new way of thinking. You've learned how to silence that resistance and view life with the leans of love rather than fear. 

As a bonus everyone around you has been picking up your good vibes since you started this process and they are benefiting also. 

My spirituality has blossomed so much in the last few years through these subtle shifts and I NEED to start integrating more of it into my work online. I want to share the wisdom thats radically changed my life. So be ready! Now is the time for light workers and I am feeling the call. This year is going to have a spiritual focus and my blog is going to evolve - not only by my passion for spirituality but by my new role as a mama. 

And I can't wait for these changes.  

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Like I mentioned, it's been a rollercoaster. Uncovering fears can be messy, even when you are spiritually strong. Add the hormonal adventure of being pregnant and you are in for one hell of a ride.  

Pregnancy feels like what every teenage drama would describe being a vampire like. I know that sounds dramatic but Im not kidding.

Everything is escalated and your body is in a constant state of transition. You are hungry, thirsty, tired, and uncomfortable in your own skin. Every emotion is heightened and more intense. Your intuition is at its max and you are more sensitive than ever. 

As uncomfortable as it is, this weird thing happens mentally where you enjoy it just as much as you don't. The grace, surrender, and strength that it takes to be pregnant makes you feel so productive and powerful. It's a little bit insane and honestly intimidating.  

Participating in MCM, meditating daily, and spirituality in general is rad during pregnancy. I feel like just as every emotion is heightened all the bonuses are too. 

Ive got two pregnancy gems for you! Two videos where I talk about all the prego details. Part 1 is my experience with pregnancy. Part 2 is a product guide/review. 

Check them out below! 

In other news...I cleaned out a lot of files on my mac to start the new year fresh and ended up deleting my entire iMovie library...*face palm. 

I lost all of the footage I had filmed and edited from the last 2 years. 

Not only is this a huge slap in the face creatively but editing this particular video was a major part of the healing process. I worked hard in creating a really beautiful video with footage from the most difficult life changing year and just like that its gone. 

Im currently dealing with the lack of control I have over getting that footage back and its been very frustrating. I'm working on the miracle of it being a glorious release that happened for a reason, but I'm still hoping and waiting for it all to somehow be restored. More on how this plays out later...

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A rad change to 2017 is I finally made the leap to legally changing my name.

For those of you that didn't know, the name Magnolia Rose is not my original name. 

I was born under a different name and decided Magnolia Rose would be my internet alias. 

The name fit so well Ive wanted to make it my middle name for a while. After my dads poor decisions and my split with Josh I didn't want either of my last names as options. And I definitely didnt want either on my babies birth certificate. 

So I filed a petition with the court to legally change both my middle and last name and as of January 10th, 2017 I officially became Emily Magnolia Rose. 

Ironically the judge that I met with for my name change was one of the first judges we met with in 2015 regarding the issues around my grandmas death.  

It was strange being in that particular court room with that particular judge explaining why I no longer want to be affiliated with both my father and my ex.  

Another emotional ride but also a beautiful closure to what now feels like a past life. 

I think its safe to say that this year so far as been emotional. But emotional in a great way. 

I spent a day last weekend detoxing, meditating, listening to music, and reading. I just allowed myself a complete break to feel every emotion my sweet hormones wanted me to feel. It was a great release and giving myself the permission to just flow with it was amazing. It was much needed and super fabulous. 

With all that said, I am really grateful for all of the tools I have as well as Mason who keeps my crazy in check and continues to make me smile every day. 

Much love to you all! 

Officially....

-Magnolia Rose

Set Yourself Up for Success

With the new year right around the corner, this week is a great time for a little reflection. Many of you might have already been planning your New Year goals way in advance, months ago. Many of you are starting to think about it now and many of you like to wait for New Years Eve or even New Years day.

Wherever you are at in the process of your New Years resolution/reflection, I wanted to let you in on a little secret that works and will surely set you up for success. 

I like to call it The M Word. Its strong like the F word but has the power to change your life. Next to the F word itself, its my favorite word. Its also something you have FULL control over and that you can have a lot of fun with!

Manifestation. 

Simply put "your thoughts create your reality".

This concept is nothing new, its been translated many times to many groups in many different ways and formats. This is great because the belief is found everywhere and you can find a dialogue that speaks to you personally.

Its NOT some "hippie magic" exclusive to us light workers. I personally infuse my hippie vibe into this concept because thats what works for me. I will definitely use words like universe, energy, spirit, vibe etc...because its the way I think and how I relate. Regardless of what resource you find, what dialogue you identify with or what guru you go with - the concept is the same.

"Your thoughts create your reality" 

Your beliefs become your thoughts, those thoughts become your words and your words become your actions. Habits are created from those actions and those habits become your values. Those values create your intentions and your intentions make up your energy. Your energy is in everything you do! Your attitude is made up of that energy and that energy creates your reality.

"Energy flows where your intention goes" 

I believe EVERYTHING has energy, everything around us. All of it. You are always radiating energy. You are always putting something out there. That "something" being your energy and the "out there" I am referring to, being the universe or those around you. Make sense? 

SO! As we are in self reflection mode saying hello to the new year, lets look at our personal dialogue....our thoughts....our energy. 

Judging by social media - this last year was a rough one for many of you. Which I totally can relate to, but hating on 2016 has become a popular social media trend, hashtag, T-shirt idea, etc...and hating it isn't going to get anyone anywhere. That energy isn't going to make this next year any better, its going to keep you stuck in the same cycle that caused you to have the belief you do about 2016. 

If you want 2017 to be different your thoughts need to be different. 

Although I say that bluntly with complete confidence that your reality about 2016 will most definitely be your reality in 2017, I also don't want to take away from those of you who might be hurting or still grieving through some of the difficulty that came from 2016.

Understand that this topic is something I am very familiar with and that what 2016 was for you is what 2015 was for me. Ive been there and I feel for you, my intention is to help guide you the same way others helped guide me. Together we can rearrange your perspective - change your thoughts, attitude and dialogue - and move positively forward with a fresh new perspective into the new year. 

Maybe in the year 2016 you experienced loss, change, fear, doubt...maybe all of the above? Whatever happened, happened. Its over, its done, its in the past. Honor where you have been, where you are at now, take a breath and lets move forward. Lets MANIFEST some magic in 2017 by reorganizing our thoughts and using the M word to our advantage. 

"The universe does not know the difference between past, present, and future. It is always responding to your current feelings and delivering you more of the same." 

In the last few years I have learned a lot about the art of acceptance. I have mastered the art of manifestation and I have developed a really kick ass relationship with the universe, my spirit, my many guides and my inner guidance system. My journey of self discovery continues and I approach every loss, change, fear and/or doubt as an opportunity rather than a disappointment.

Its no longer defeat, its acceptance and its really fucking beautiful. By changing my energy around those difficult experiences I have manifested a really great life that I am proud of and excited about.  

So how do we turn things like loss, change, fear and doubt into opportunity? How exactly do we make those kind of experiences positive? 

We change our dialogue, our attitude and our thinking. We shift the energy around each experience. Like I mentioned above....Beliefs become our thoughts - thoughts become our words - words become our actions - actions become habits - habits become our values - values create our intentions - our intentions make up our energy - our energy creates our reality. 

We start by changing our thoughts. That is the first step. I'll give you some bad ass examples using the difficulties mentioned above...

LOSS: 

This is a tough one. It can be so difficult to make "loss" positive. In the last few years I "lost" my grandma, my marriage, my dad, my sweet Uncle and multiple friendships that mean the world to me. But in no way did I lose anything < theres your change of attitude.

I could easily play the victim, stay stuck, complaining about the hard times I faced. I could focus on the depression I experienced and how much time was wasted in poor choices and pathetic relationships OR I can get real about it and focus on all the positive opportunity available to me by a simple shift in perspective. 

With my sweet grandma and Uncle Tim passing over into a new youthful life, I GAINED the most beautiful, loving, powerful spirit guides that continue to support me everyday. They just do it from a different location and in a different way. Through the experience of loss, I gained a deeper appreciation for life and the precious time we have with our loved ones. I gained a new soul sister and really special friendship with my Aunt Lisa. 

With the "loss" of my ex I GAINED my life back. I let go of a very toxic relationship and the universe helped get me to where I am now by focusing on positivity and detoxing those bad vibes out of my life.

I gained countless perspective, clarity and a fresh new energy through letting all that go. Through this detox I "lost" many friends and (with the exception of a few) his whole family. I said goodbye to many but in no way did I "lose" anything or anyone.

I GAINED a new family, a new circle of friends and a deeper love for the true friends and family that continue to keep in touch.

I manifested Mason by focusing on what I wanted out of life and out of a relationship. I worked my ass off on my personal issues looking deeply into the kind of person I wanted to be. I went on a personal self love journey for 2 years and figured myself out.

I focused on the positive possibilities and opportunities rather than what I didn't have, what I had lost or what I wasn't getting.

I read "May Cause Miracles" by Gabrielle Bernstein at the beginning of 2016 and realized how much of my life was glued together by fear. I made a leap of faith and reorganized my life just like I had done to my thoughts and everything worked out.

Together we are starting our own family. Through what would be considered a massive "loss" I gained WAY MORE than I ever could have imagined and coming spring 2017 I get the opportunity of being a mama to our little love, Leona Rose. 

Through the "loss" of my father I learned the very important art of forgiveness. I love the memories we have together and will forever cherish those few years I had my dad in my life.

I am very thankful for what traits I got from him. My sense of humor, appreciation for quotes, love of accents and funny voices and an unapologetic ability to look forward positively. All those are things I got from him.

I genuinely hope one day he can connect inward and begin the journey of love and light, but until that time I forgive him every time he is brought up. I send love and light his way and choose to focus on the positive. 

In all these experiences we get to choose how we react. Your energy decides if they are a negative loss or a positive opportunity.  

CHANGE: 

Oh man have I gotten good at this. And how great is it that I can say that positively with it being a good thing. Change is the only constant. Learning to embrace it and look forward to it with an open mind, heart and welcoming attitude is rad and something I wish for everyone.

Mastering change naturally comes from lots of "loss" but I think I got good at this one from 5 moves in under 6 months...Between where I was sleeping and where I was storing all my shit I became very comfortable with change.

I have also become really great at cleaning and re-organizing any space, over and over and over again...AND I no longer hoard things that have or once had an emotional attachment but no longer have any value. Ive learned to hold onto the positive memories and let go of the physical object. 

I am thankful for this tool because our world is consistently changing and being adaptable but balanced in our values is rad. With a baby on the way and parenting fast approaching I think being adaptable and flexible is a very valuable gift. 

Staying graceful and calm while change does its best to be chaotic is way more fun than giving into that chaos and letting it control you. 

The more you can learn to LOVE change, the more you will embrace it. In turn it will become your friend rather than your enemy. It all has to do with your attitude about it. 

DOUBT/FEAR: 

And heres where this gets super fun! When you change your perspective, your dialogue, your attitude and thus your energy - there is no longer room for these two gems. This really fun way of thinking is fueled solely on confidence and love. You are no longer fueling fear, you are fueling love and love only therefore you have no reason to doubt anything.

At this point in the process you gain that kick ass relationship I was referring to with both yourself and the universe. You can truly trust that everything around you is happening with only the highest intentions and only good can truly come from all of it. 


As simple of a concept it is, we tend to over complicate it. Don't make it messy. Just watch your words, your dialogue and your energy. Start there and the rest will manifest on its own. 

Truthfully, you are going to have another year just like 2016. In life you are going to continue to experience loss, change, fear and doubt. Even those of us who feel we have mastered the art of manifestation will still experience these very normal, real, earthly experiences that make us human.

Just because you "find yourself" and gain a really great way of thinking, being and living doesn't mean shit ever stops hitting the fan. What changes is that instead of it being metaphorical shit thats hitting the fan, you realize that its actually a fabulous opportunity to leave the room and discover something better. 

Negativity exists and always will, I have negative moments daily just like everybody else. Ive just become really good at reorganizing my thoughts, finding the positive and focusing on that. Its a choice I make daily and you can make it too! 

My hope is that this tool is something you keep in your back pocket knowing it is available to you at all times. I hope that in 2017 you become familiar with it enough that you begin making some rad changes and life becomes a super fun experience even when you are "struggling".

With your thoughts being your reality and you having full control over your thoughts, you have full control over your reality. 

What will your reality be in 2017? What are your goals? What are you stepping into and what are you letting go of?  

As you write down your goals or log them away into your brain, look at the dialogue and the words you are using when you speak about it. Is it infused with love or fear? Lack or gratitude? What is the energy behind your goals?  

I love you all dearly and I am thankful for each and every one of you. I am excited for what 2017 has to offer and I cant wait to step into this next year fully with everything I have learned over the last few years. I am grateful for every struggle because it pushed me towards the right people, the right books, my gurus, my guides, my man and my baby. 

Cheers to 2016 and every fabulous year that came before it. 

Much love, 

-Magnolia Rose